Almost Lover?

Welp, I tried to write this blog from my phone last night when I really, REALLY, needed to/wanted to.
Only.
Turns out theres a word limit ish thing?
Idk, but Isaid fuck it and I exited it.

Anyhoo, one of my new favorite songs is Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy. I first heard it from a Cosplay Music Video done by Koi Cosplay, mainly put together by DemonicGaara, on youtube (click here to see it).

One thing to know about me: i do not believe in Love. I believe in Platonic Love. I believe in Physical Attraction and Lust, but not Love. I find it foolish.

At least in reality. . .
Because I am a die-hard Yaoi-Fan I'm kind of an oxymoron, ne? And how I love romance novels and romantic movies and stuff. Sure, I laugh at the movies, but when it comes to Yaoi-Manga or whatever? I'm giggling ><

Don't get me started on Cosplay photos or fanfiction. They make me giggle EVEN MORE.

Which makes me think that, hey, do I believe in Love?

Because I had come to the conclusion long ago that I didn't.
And yet. . . the Video pulled at my heart strings, caused me to flail about, and squeal like a little kid.

Gahhh.

I swear last night there was a much more structured form to this thing.
I mean it.

I had started off by saying how the song was stuck in my head right when I wanted to go to sleep, and my laptop was off in the living room, so I went to look at my subscriptions of Youtube, thinking there were a lot, when really there was one. Really? Wow. Anyhoo, then I was like 'Hey, I'll go see if there's a music video for Almost Lover so its still stuck in my head!'

Wrong move, lemme tell you.
I searched 'Almost Lover Music Video' and a bunch of Twilight shit came up.
That just pissed me the FUCK OFF SO BADLY.
Twilight's cool, sure, I mean, I'm kinda a fan. I make fun of it and criticize it like shit, but, I've been reading it since 2005. So yeah.
Anyhoo, SEEing all those videos just pissed me off. . . a song that I felt dearly to, and loved way too much for it to be normal, was being used by TwiHards

Really?
Seriously?
That pissed. Me. The. Fuck Off.

So, instead, I went to watch the video DemonicGaara/KoiCosplay put together (linked above somewhere)....Bad decision.

Let's get one thing straight: I hate crying. Personally, at least. I absolutely hate it. I cry, like, what, 5 times a year? IF that?
And watching the video I started to get all emotional and blubbery
x-x

which made me REAAALLY wanna blog (only Blogger and Sprint hate each other, apparently, and I wans't able to) about it

About the amazing song

About how everything I thought I knew was going kind of haywire.

Like the whole not believing in Love part of me.
I've been such a SasuNaru (SasukexNaruto for those that don't know) fangirl this past week it's been making me rethink things.

{>.>; I partly blame NavyBlueWings' amazing fanfiction}

So.
Blah.
This doesn't really have much of a point, does it?
Sorry for that.
I just..
really needed to blog.

I'm prob gonna make the Almost Lover vid the video on here, now, too
>.>;

DONTJUDGEME
*goes into corner of woe and listens to Almost Lover on repeat*