Personality?

What's mine?
Liar.
Fake.
Annoying.
Lazy.
AntiSocial.
Bitch.
Bipolar (symptoms).

And so much more.
I hate it.
I don't know how to change it, for good, because when I do, I end up reverting back to 'normal' after so-and-so amount of time.
I hope for something and it gets crushed.
I try my hardest, and I get told what I did was fake, or had unoriginal parts to it.

When the latter happens, I try and EXPLAIN myself, but instead I get shut down.
I hate it.
I hate hate hate hate hate it, and I hate hate hate hate hate me.

I don't want to be me. I want to be someone else.