To My Readers on Fanfiction.net

So, if you're at this page, and aren't one of my friends that stalk my blog, that means that you're wondering why I disappeared for nearly a year. (Beware this is LOONG)

Well, simply, I got lazy. I didn't want to write. As well, I went to a writing camp in July, worked on original things, and once I got home I reread all that I had written there, and got really pissed at myself. How could I let myself write something so HORRIBLE? How could I have mixed point of views up so BADLY?

It unnerved me to no end.
As well, I realized I probably WASN'T cut out for original writing, since I was lacking SO MUCH in ideas. I was depressed that camp had ended-It had been the best thing to happen to me, and I met people who I'm going to be friend with for forever-and then realizing that my writing was THAT bad, made it even worse.

My friends told me I was full of it, but really, I was a failure, and was not inspired to write a SINGLE thing for a VERY long time.

I begun writing poetry lately; just a little bit. In english we finished up the poetry portion of the year about a month ago, and I found it to be a great way to unleash myself. It got me out of the funk I'd been in. Of course...most of my poems depressed me once I read over them BUT THAT IS BESIDES THE POINT. What really upped my self confidence was when one of my poems I wrote won the Poetry Contest for our yearbook (they put a poem in front of each grade's section in it).

Having that, I began to feel more confident in my skills as a writer.

~I'm sure a lot of you know the new way that FFN works-the crossover section. Well, once I put my stories in there, I began to get more reviews-There was finally an easy way to find crossover fanfics, and thus more people saw mine! Getting those reviews, and knowing that people WANTED to read more, really helped make me realize 'Okay, I've got to GET WRITING or else these people are gonna KILL ME'

I'd been getting good response, and then today I read an annonymous review. I'm sure a lot of you are gonna call me a baby, and so be it, but this person spoke about how selfish I was for wanting so many reviews, that I was just posting for flattery, and that I was making everyone OOC, as well that my grammar was aweful.

Well, 1) It's fanfiction. I'm not a PROFESSIONAL, I'm a TEENAGER, of course my effin grammar isn't going to be PERFECT
2) I did say I posted only for feedback, and as stated above, hearing such great responses boosted my confidence; so yeah, I may like the flattery. Who wouldn't/doesn't?!
3) Making people OOC? Okay, I'm not the original creator, so I can't exactly EMBODY the characters to the T, but I was doing a pretty damn good job, if I do say so myself.

Ugh, but yeah. And the fact that it was anonymous pissed me off even more; what, are you too much of a coward to leave an email address for me to find you at? To discuss this like human beings? But, whatever.

Basically, I lot has happened in the past year or so, but I have finally begun writing again. I'm sure what I've written isn't perfect after such a long break in time, but, do tell me what I have done wrong! I'd really appreciate it (:

Annoy, to my readers, I hope this cleared some things up. . . I know excuses are worthless, but, I felt the need to at least TELL you all what I've been up to. Now, do go read that update of mine and review if you haven't already (;

To my friends: um..yeah...excuse this^^''

OH YEAH; if anyone on FFN wants to stalk me on here, feel free to! I love meeting new people! Just tell me your FFN name ((: